All that glitters ain’t gold.

January 27, 2012 | 11:20 pm | Posted in: Other | 4 comments

…so why would we pretend it is? Stop throwing the glitters for a moment! This post is going to be a little different than what I’ve written before. No happy happy joy joy this time because, obviously after having a bad day, I came to realize that bad days are just as important as good ones. There’s no need to put up a smile when the tears stand you closer. And to feel guilty about it because your life isn’t half as bad as someone else’s or to always think that someone else’s grass is greener.

We all have our own problems, depressing thoughts and reasons to not always feel the best we can be. Everything may go perfectly well and you may still feel like you’re walking around with a hole in your heart. And boy, can that hurt. There’s no need to push away that feeling somewhere deep down where nothing can reach it, because sooner or later you’re going to have to deal with it. Speaking of dealing with it, I think society nowadays seems to be scared to show their real feelings. I have so much respect for those who dó dare to tell what’s on their mind even if it’s not all roses and butterflies.

Annika, for instance. A lovely inspiring blogger from Sweden who does the coolest things, takes the most gorgeous photo’s and yet is currently fighting against cancer. The moment I read her first blogpost about this it made my heart sink to my shoes to realize that everyday there’s a chance your life can be turned upside down and maybe even taken from you by something you have totally no control over. Or take Mandy, a girl who is super succesfull with her website aimed at single women and not afraid to show how much it sucks when you can’t seem to find love, get dumped or have different values when it comes to relationships. Here I was thinking I was the only one.

Suddenly I realized that we must probably all have those days where you just want to dissapear from the world, cut all forms of contact and sit and wonder all day if anyone would miss you when you’re gone. The truth is, they will. But does anyone really love you? Truth is, they do. Then why can you still feel so sad? Truth is, I don’t really know. Ofcourse it’s not easy to understand why you see yourself differently in the mirror, or why no guy ever took the effort to tell you ‘I love you’, or why that other person always seems to easily achieve things you struggle so long for, or why something happens to you that don’t feel you deserve. What I do know is that there is no need to be ashamed for anything you feel for what you feel is true and can’t be judged by anyone else but you.

Along the way all the bumps on the road will not keep your wheels from spinning. They might in fact be there to keep your focus, to make you more grateful for the parts without bumps, to make you realize what you achieved in the end. Ever thought about it that way? I know, it takes time to change a ‘let me just eat chocolate, not think about a thing and watch movies in bed forever’-mood, but you’ll be surprised by how strong you can be if you really understand yourself. Don’t be afraid to listen to, look at and talk to yourself. You may eventually see that everything you are is exactly what you are meant to be.

You. :)